Last night I met Abby Winters Australia, WOW.

sorry nurul..sorry aisyah
for not following u guys just now..
wenta watch confessions of a teenage drama queen
with ah ma,feli darling,charles my toyboy and joo joot!!
it is not that boring ok..
it is really romantic and so girly!!
i luv it coz its like my real life story..
only i havent met my sam yet..
i love the ending..
so sweeeet right feli??
after the movie
went to buy my handphone accessory..
sweet..
almost same like joo joot..
hehehekz..
after that we took pics..
so cute our face..

later met my mum at cpf building
to check my dad cpf..
and also pay the bills at sam's machine..
i lurve that ting..
always scan here and there..

in class during chem and physics,
my elfi was so funniee
and nice bastard-ish rahman was bein damn sarcastic..
never mind..
im gonna miss the both of them when i leave this skool..
disturbed nurul a lil bit
sorry my dear..

hmm..
i just wanna say that sumtimes i feel
that people im not that close to make my day
so much happier than people i am so close with..
its like i can be myself when im with those
that i barely know
and that i have to be this sweet nonchalant girl
when im with my so called best friends..
fuck it..im not..
gawd am i pissed??
oh yes i am..
nvr mind..

Adios...

It sounds tragic, doesn't it? The pride of Sydney's West, Australia's one and only Wonderland, is to close forever on April 26th, 2004. I know it's old news, but it's only just hit me now. And it kinda hurts. To think that future generations will never experience what I've experienced in Wonderland and may not even know of its existence, is pitiful. I really do feel sorry for what people are about to miss out on. I had the ultimate pleasure of going to Wonderland yesterday... one last time... before it is forever disintegrated from this cruel, cruel world of ours. I had an absolute ball. I rode on all the major rides, but I must say, my favourite ride and most likely to be missed would be The Bush Beast. I love the anticipation, the excitement, the nervous feeling that I get when I think about how old the ride seems to be and how I can fall out of it anytime 'cause I'm so small. But then, I just let it all out by screaming my lungs out and just letting go... it's one of the best feelings in the world. Can you feel the nerves? Ahhh. The Pirate Ship. Woohoo for Wonderland! This was taken right after The River Rampage. Can you believe we're only 20 years young? You can almost hear how loud I was screaming on this one! 'Nuff said.

I was going to wait until I got home from school to do this entry but since I had one of my classes end early I figured i had a few minutes to spare. Lately, I have been disheartened by many things. My everyday stresses are bogging me down, I am having a very hard time managing this crazy event called life. To top this all off many of the people I considered my friend have stopped responding. Have you ever felt like you have been shunned...ignored...pushed aside? Well that is how I feel. I have been turned against, and I don't think it is for a valid reason.


So I ask myself, what is a friend? A friend is somone who stands by you no matter what. It doesn't matter if you are rich or poor, have the same ideas or completely different ones. Your "friend" doesn't turn their back on you when your life gets messy.... they come closer than they were before. Friends don't have to always agree, they don't alway have the same ideals or the same God. They don't even have to have the same friends. But they respect each others differences and embrace them...no matter what. I have never been a sheep. Never. I have never been the type of person who whipers "don't talk to her any more because of this or that or she just isn't with the "in" crowd anymore". I have never been an "in" crowd kind of person so maybe that is why. I make my own rules.


I am ME, I like me. I accept my personality the way it is, even with all of my faults, and I have many. I have a quote that gets me through times such as these and it was by an amazing woman named Eleanor Roosevelt...and she said something to the effect that people cannot make you feel inferior unless you give them the consent to do so. I can't remember it word for word right now..but that is the main jist of it.


To all of my true friends out there who know the real me.... Don't believe everything fed to you, or judge me on my differences or who I coose to talk to or not talk to. All i ask is that you treat me the way you want me to treat you...which is with honesty. If you can't do that then don't be my friend. I'll be happy to see you go away. Because I don't need that...I don't know who would. I don't need anyone to bring me down more than I do myself. I do a good job of that all on my own.


Thank you for reading.


P.S. To MY "friend" the one the who has stuck by me through the messes and misery. One who feels my pain like no other. I love ya...like a sister. Always will no matter what.

Surfing the net while listening to the Ramones. I am a big fan of Ricky Fitts, so for today's adventure, I decided to look for screenshots from American Beauty. I found two awesome shots of Ricky's captures (yes, we're on a first name basis now). "I was filming this dead bird... because it's beautiful." -Ricky Fitts "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it... like my heart is going to cave in." -Ricky Fitts Such beautiful scenes, don't you agree? I want to capture simple pleasures like this... I guess all I need now is a bagful of record tapes. Ricky Fitts inspires. "It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing. And there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it, right? And this bag was just... dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. That's the day I realized that there was this entire life behind things, and this incredibly benevolent force that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid. Ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it... and my heart is going to cave in."

Here's the script I've written for my 30 second animation project. A DAY IN THE LIFE OF NERDOS EXT. IN A CITY STREET – DAY We see an ATTRACTIVE LADY exiting a store in a rush. Seconds later, the same door opens and we see a young man, NERDOS hesitantly running after her. NERDOS Uhhh… ex… excuse me… y-you… ATTRACTIVE LADY (turning to look at NERDOS) *gasp* Get away from me you ugly f… Get away from me you ugly f...! (she sees that he’s holding her puppy and tries to grab it) NERDOS (pulling his hand back) Uh-uh! Not so fast! END CREDITS Song: "Loser" performed by Beck Hansen Do you see what I'm trying to say? This "Attractive Lady" thinks she's Queen Shit because she is, well, attractive. She treats Nerdos like scum, but once she realises he has her beloved dog, she turns into this nice lady who just wants her dog back. Ha! Nerdos is smarter than that, m'lady! You're up for some bribery, yes yes. Feel his wrath!

Ria got Punk'd!I punked up my sister for that Illustration project I'm working on. Honestly, I am so lost now... but here's just a rough idea for the finished product. It's supposed to compare a branded punk (left) and a do-it-yourself punk (right). A funny thing happened during the photoshoot at the nearby park. There were these two girls there, 12-13 year olds I presume. They saw my sister and I begin to shoot and one of them shouted out, "LESBIANS!" I just thought about how pathetic and immature it sounded. Being called a lesbian isn't even offensive you little dumb fuckwit! (Remind me to chuck in a couple of silver coins in the poor box for this remark.) Anyway. I took an IQ Test from Tickle.com and I got the score of 127. This is what they said: Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. Impressive!

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