I was going to wait until I got home from school to do this entry but since I had one of my classes end early I figured i had a few minutes to spare. Lately, I have been disheartened by many things. My everyday stresses are bogging me down, I am having a very hard time managing this crazy event called life. To top this all off many of the people I considered my friend have stopped responding. Have you ever felt like you have been shunned...ignored...pushed aside? Well that is how I feel. I have been turned against, and I don't think it is for a valid reason.


So I ask myself, what is a friend? A friend is somone who stands by you no matter what. It doesn't matter if you are rich or poor, have the same ideas or completely different ones. Your "friend" doesn't turn their back on you when your life gets messy.... they come closer than they were before. Friends don't have to always agree, they don't alway have the same ideals or the same God. They don't even have to have the same friends. But they respect each others differences and embrace them...no matter what. I have never been a sheep. Never. I have never been the type of person who whipers "don't talk to her any more because of this or that or she just isn't with the "in" crowd anymore". I have never been an "in" crowd kind of person so maybe that is why. I make my own rules.


I am ME, I like me. I accept my personality the way it is, even with all of my faults, and I have many. I have a quote that gets me through times such as these and it was by an amazing woman named Eleanor Roosevelt...and she said something to the effect that people cannot make you feel inferior unless you give them the consent to do so. I can't remember it word for word right now..but that is the main jist of it.


To all of my true friends out there who know the real me.... Don't believe everything fed to you, or judge me on my differences or who I coose to talk to or not talk to. All i ask is that you treat me the way you want me to treat you...which is with honesty. If you can't do that then don't be my friend. I'll be happy to see you go away. Because I don't need that...I don't know who would. I don't need anyone to bring me down more than I do myself. I do a good job of that all on my own.


Thank you for reading.


P.S. To MY "friend" the one the who has stuck by me through the messes and misery. One who feels my pain like no other. I love ya...like a sister. Always will no matter what.